I'm appalled with myself. I went to the white out first football game of the season and I didn't take one picture. Not one. That's not even me. I don't understand what I did wrong... like... huh... I'm so confused by this. I thought about it for sure. I even said to Ash that we needed to take a picture. And I commented on how cool the white looked... but I still did not take one. What is wrong with me.... now I have nothing to share. How pathetic. I am really sorry about this. Because I'm sure that you all were SO excited to see my pictures from the game.... well, I do not have any. Obviously.
Friday, August 31, 2012
Don't call me Lady.
I will seriously throw up on the spot if one more person calls me lady.
I am only 19. That is for sure not old enough to be called lady.
It's only been happening for the past few weeks. I haven't been called it before.
I'm sort of ticked. I feel like an old lady.
"Give it to the lady" "There is a lady behind you"
I'd rather be called girl, or even man for that matter! (ok... maybe not man...)
I'd rather be called girl, or even man for that matter! (ok... maybe not man...)
I can't remember the other ways it's been used, but I tried to forget so I don't get depressed.
Maybe I really do have issues with this whole growing up thing.
Just don't call me lady and we'll be fine.
Thanks.
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| For you information, this is a lady. |
Wednesday, August 29, 2012
Brigham City Temple Open House
Even though it was a late night I had such an amazing time with my family at the Brigham City Temple Open house. The temple was so beautiful and the spirit was very strong there even though it hadn't been dedicated yet. From just one day of my Art History Class I was looking for symbolism in everything in the temple. I couldn't believe how much there was. Not a lot of it was obvious, I kind of think they just want you to make up your own ideas about all of it was. But I would love to walk through with one of the architects or even a seminary teacher or just someone more knowledgeable about those things than I am to see what all the symbolism is. But I'm sure that you learn about it when you actually go through the temple. Kind of like how you learn about the mirrors in the sealing room or the oxen holing up the baptismal font. But ya. I just loved it. We got yummy shakes and had some fun talks on the way there and back since it was a long drive. I feel so blessed to be so close to so many temples!
Karly's Medallion
My sister Karly got her young women medallion on Sunday! I can't even explain how proud of her I am! I love her so much! That is such a huge accomplishment!
SOPHOMORE YEAR HERE I COME!
I seriously cannot believe that it has been a year since I first started college. That cannot be real. Seriously. It just doesn't feel like that. (I just wrote don't instead of doesn't, I need to stop listening to country.
This is my first bit of free time in a long time. I don't know what to do with myself.
I will be working a lot less though because I am mentally and physically exhausted. I haven't eaten much lately, but I also haven't been able to run because of lack of time. Ya, I could wake up at 5:00 to do it, but then that would be one more thing, lack of sleep. I can't combine all of those together. I just need my sleep.
So I'm here. With new roommates, a new place, new ward, new classes, new goals, new plans, new attitude, and a new job! Whoooo! I'm now going to be a cashier at the Provo Macey's instead of working in the Deli at the Lehi one. I can't tell you how excited I am. Seriously. The hours will work better, and I'll actually have a social life at work.
I guess having a complete mental break down (believe it or not, I haven't had one of those in a while) in front of your mom CAN actually motivate you. Thank goodness.
I had been feeling like nothing was going the way I expected it. Reality check- NOTHING really ever goes the way you plan it. But I have just learned to make the best of it. My attitude is making a huge difference.
I'm crazy busy all the time with work, and getting back on track with school, but I'm actually super excited about this year. Mainly because I know a little better how I'm actually going to do this.
The rundown-
I have a GPA of 1.99. That's right folks, .01 away from NOT being on academic warning and not having to petition to get my Financial Aid back up.
To stay in BYU you have to maintain a 2.0 overall GPA. I was so close. But- I did get put on academic warning and I have one semester to get it back to good standing before I get put on probation.
Probation is NOT an option for me.
So to fix it I went to a counselor talked for a long time about everything. I made goals to go to these free classes they have to help you succeed, talking to a peer counselor once a week, forming study groups, and going to get tested for a learning disability. He even helped me with my schedule. That helped more than I can even explain.
All Tuesday I spent doing those things. I met with a million people and walked to a million places. I changed my schedule, filled out papers, talked a lot, and made appointments. On top of that, I also had class and the Brigham temple open house to go to with my family. Full- but VERY productive day. I haven't been that proud of myself in a long time. I felt like I could conquer the world.
A lot of the people that I actually talked to complimented me on my desire and determination. I felt like I didn't have a lot of that last semester. Hopefully this helps...
So with my financial aid... it's a good thing my mom has some money saved up. Even from working all summer I didn't have enough for tuition. So, to my dismay, I used some of that precious money to pay for tuition. That is what it's meant for. But I just wanted to do it on my own. I might actually be able to do that as well... I talked to a financial advisor and I MIGHT be able to petition for my financial aid! Yes! I'm really hoping this works!
I can't even explain how much I have seen my Heavenly Father in my life right now and how blessed I feel. I was, and still am struggling, and will continue to; but I know that with him I can do anything that I set my mind to. He cares so much about us, and wants us to succeed and do well. We just have to turn to him and ask for help. The key is on our side of the veil.
This is my first bit of free time in a long time. I don't know what to do with myself.
I will be working a lot less though because I am mentally and physically exhausted. I haven't eaten much lately, but I also haven't been able to run because of lack of time. Ya, I could wake up at 5:00 to do it, but then that would be one more thing, lack of sleep. I can't combine all of those together. I just need my sleep.
So I'm here. With new roommates, a new place, new ward, new classes, new goals, new plans, new attitude, and a new job! Whoooo! I'm now going to be a cashier at the Provo Macey's instead of working in the Deli at the Lehi one. I can't tell you how excited I am. Seriously. The hours will work better, and I'll actually have a social life at work.
I guess having a complete mental break down (believe it or not, I haven't had one of those in a while) in front of your mom CAN actually motivate you. Thank goodness.
I had been feeling like nothing was going the way I expected it. Reality check- NOTHING really ever goes the way you plan it. But I have just learned to make the best of it. My attitude is making a huge difference.
I'm crazy busy all the time with work, and getting back on track with school, but I'm actually super excited about this year. Mainly because I know a little better how I'm actually going to do this.
The rundown-
I have a GPA of 1.99. That's right folks, .01 away from NOT being on academic warning and not having to petition to get my Financial Aid back up.
To stay in BYU you have to maintain a 2.0 overall GPA. I was so close. But- I did get put on academic warning and I have one semester to get it back to good standing before I get put on probation.
Probation is NOT an option for me.
So to fix it I went to a counselor talked for a long time about everything. I made goals to go to these free classes they have to help you succeed, talking to a peer counselor once a week, forming study groups, and going to get tested for a learning disability. He even helped me with my schedule. That helped more than I can even explain.
All Tuesday I spent doing those things. I met with a million people and walked to a million places. I changed my schedule, filled out papers, talked a lot, and made appointments. On top of that, I also had class and the Brigham temple open house to go to with my family. Full- but VERY productive day. I haven't been that proud of myself in a long time. I felt like I could conquer the world.
A lot of the people that I actually talked to complimented me on my desire and determination. I felt like I didn't have a lot of that last semester. Hopefully this helps...
So with my financial aid... it's a good thing my mom has some money saved up. Even from working all summer I didn't have enough for tuition. So, to my dismay, I used some of that precious money to pay for tuition. That is what it's meant for. But I just wanted to do it on my own. I might actually be able to do that as well... I talked to a financial advisor and I MIGHT be able to petition for my financial aid! Yes! I'm really hoping this works!
I can't even explain how much I have seen my Heavenly Father in my life right now and how blessed I feel. I was, and still am struggling, and will continue to; but I know that with him I can do anything that I set my mind to. He cares so much about us, and wants us to succeed and do well. We just have to turn to him and ask for help. The key is on our side of the veil.
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
Here we go adulthood...
Here we go with just some more thoughts. I can't seem to just separate everything that's going on and everything that I'm thinking into separate posts so they will just stay in one.
Whhhhhhheeeeewwwwww. That's pretty much how I feel right now. For a couple different reasons. That biggest one- I just got done working out. I always thought that I hated working out. But to tell you the truth, I actually like it quite a lot. The only thing I hate is working out with people. I run on the canal trail by my house so people can't watch me. I also hate running with people. I just like going at my own pace and I almost feel like I do better if I do. I ran 2 miles in 20min. Now- I know that's not that good. But you have to give me a break because I haven't really done much exercising all summer. I mean I haven't really just been a couch potato, because I hike, swim, walk, STAND (a lot of that at work) and just lots of stuff. But I've also been eating crappier than ever, which in turn has made me a chubsta ;) so I've been working on that, and hopefully when I move back into my apartment (which is the next whhhheeewwww) I can buy healthier foods and stick to my plan for my workouts!
Ok- now my next whhheeew like I said is that I'm moving into my apartment on Friday.... or Saturday... I dunno yet! I moved more than half my stuff in yesterday. I actually have a lot less stuff now. I'm my mothers daughter and don't mind throwing things away, so that's what I did when I first moved out, and then when I moved back home. So, here we go again, more trash. Besides that, you know how when you are cleaning out your closet and you always think that you're going to wear "that one shirt" sooner or later. It fits and everything, you just never wear it. Well- I had a lot of those. So, I got rid of them. The result- only 3 1/2 boxes of clothes! I'm still deciding if that was a good thing or not, now that I write it, that is not very many clothes (for a girl... I think).
Seriously. Stop reading now. I'm just venting my sob story that's in my head.
But that weird thing, I feel like I'm actually an adult now.... I have no idea why. But everything feels different this year. I'm kind of thinking that I actually have a car, 2 jobs, I found my own apartment, and I feel like I've learned a lot this summer, about myself and just life in general, which has helped me mature a little more. That scares me a little. This year ACTUALLY feels like I'm going out on my own. It almost feels like my first year of college, but a little less nerve racking.
Oh! Another reason I'm freaking out. My GPA is LITERALLY .01 away from me NOT being on warning. Yes. I know what you are thinking. Because you are right, that is a really really bad GPA. I know that I will do better this semester though, I was just an idiot last year, so I need some forgiveness. So because of that, apparently I cannot get financial aid. Which is a big problem. Yeah, I have enough money saved for tuition and maybe books. But that's it folks. What about rent and next semester? Good thing I still have my jobs. But still.... I'm super worried. But I'm going to go and talk to someone about it, maybe they can help. But who knows.
I don't know if I like this adulthood thing. Money is such a big stresser.
Whhhhhhheeeeewwwwww. That's pretty much how I feel right now. For a couple different reasons. That biggest one- I just got done working out. I always thought that I hated working out. But to tell you the truth, I actually like it quite a lot. The only thing I hate is working out with people. I run on the canal trail by my house so people can't watch me. I also hate running with people. I just like going at my own pace and I almost feel like I do better if I do. I ran 2 miles in 20min. Now- I know that's not that good. But you have to give me a break because I haven't really done much exercising all summer. I mean I haven't really just been a couch potato, because I hike, swim, walk, STAND (a lot of that at work) and just lots of stuff. But I've also been eating crappier than ever, which in turn has made me a chubsta ;) so I've been working on that, and hopefully when I move back into my apartment (which is the next whhhheeewwww) I can buy healthier foods and stick to my plan for my workouts!
Ok- now my next whhheeew like I said is that I'm moving into my apartment on Friday.... or Saturday... I dunno yet! I moved more than half my stuff in yesterday. I actually have a lot less stuff now. I'm my mothers daughter and don't mind throwing things away, so that's what I did when I first moved out, and then when I moved back home. So, here we go again, more trash. Besides that, you know how when you are cleaning out your closet and you always think that you're going to wear "that one shirt" sooner or later. It fits and everything, you just never wear it. Well- I had a lot of those. So, I got rid of them. The result- only 3 1/2 boxes of clothes! I'm still deciding if that was a good thing or not, now that I write it, that is not very many clothes (for a girl... I think).
Seriously. Stop reading now. I'm just venting my sob story that's in my head.
But that weird thing, I feel like I'm actually an adult now.... I have no idea why. But everything feels different this year. I'm kind of thinking that I actually have a car, 2 jobs, I found my own apartment, and I feel like I've learned a lot this summer, about myself and just life in general, which has helped me mature a little more. That scares me a little. This year ACTUALLY feels like I'm going out on my own. It almost feels like my first year of college, but a little less nerve racking.
Oh! Another reason I'm freaking out. My GPA is LITERALLY .01 away from me NOT being on warning. Yes. I know what you are thinking. Because you are right, that is a really really bad GPA. I know that I will do better this semester though, I was just an idiot last year, so I need some forgiveness. So because of that, apparently I cannot get financial aid. Which is a big problem. Yeah, I have enough money saved for tuition and maybe books. But that's it folks. What about rent and next semester? Good thing I still have my jobs. But still.... I'm super worried. But I'm going to go and talk to someone about it, maybe they can help. But who knows.
I don't know if I like this adulthood thing. Money is such a big stresser.
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Updates/Temple
Ok- this is going to be a short, not very organized post. To add to that, I'm not going to proof read it... I'm about to fall asleep as-is, but I know that if I don't write in this today I will not have time this week and probably never will.
First- I'm going to say a few things I have done this week.
Work.
Work.
Work.
And work.
Ya, that's pretty much it. I was up to about 40 hours of work at the end of this week and I feel like I'm going to die. My body is exhausted, I feel like I could fall asleep at any moment. I don't know how people do it all the time.
I don't want to be an adult. I really don't know how I feel about it.
I'm moving out this week. So I've got a lot to do for that.
I'm not going to lie, even though it's my second year I'm way more nervous than I was last year. I'm living with 5 people I don't even know and I hardly even know how to get to my apartment. Besides that- I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't come home very often. I think that should help my case more. Also- I'm really getting the hang of both my jobs and I'm really just loving working, but I know that I need to do more. It just sucks because right when I get into the hang of things I have to jump back into the cold deep water.
Alright this is going to be a lot longer then I thought.
The Neapolitan group is back. At the end of the summer... but at least it happened right!?
I'm stressing about how much I'm going to have to do this year with school, callings, work, and volunteering.
I'm also scared all 5 of my roommates are going to be friends and I'll be the odd one out.
I feel like I'm going to miss my family more this year.
I also feel like something "big" maybe not hug the e, is going to happen. NOW- I'm not talking about marriage, if that's what you all think. I think it's something different. But I just don't know. It probably won't though, my hunches are usually wrong.
I went to the Hunger games releasing with my friends on Thursday night.
Alright boring stuff over with.
I went to the temple on Tuesday (my only day off this week) with Ashley, Karly, and Makelle. It was so much fun. We also went shopping after.
But- when we got confirmed, it was really cool. The spirit was so strong and guy that was confirming us too time to talk to us before we started and while he was saying the names and things he really took his time. I have never had anyone do it like that before. I was amazing, because he seemed like he actually cared about each and every person that he was saying. You could tell he truly did. Because they aren't just another name on a paper. They are and were real people and I like how he treated it like that.
First- I'm going to say a few things I have done this week.
Work.
Work.
Work.
And work.
Ya, that's pretty much it. I was up to about 40 hours of work at the end of this week and I feel like I'm going to die. My body is exhausted, I feel like I could fall asleep at any moment. I don't know how people do it all the time.
I don't want to be an adult. I really don't know how I feel about it.
I'm moving out this week. So I've got a lot to do for that.
I'm not going to lie, even though it's my second year I'm way more nervous than I was last year. I'm living with 5 people I don't even know and I hardly even know how to get to my apartment. Besides that- I made a promise to myself that I wouldn't come home very often. I think that should help my case more. Also- I'm really getting the hang of both my jobs and I'm really just loving working, but I know that I need to do more. It just sucks because right when I get into the hang of things I have to jump back into the cold deep water.
Alright this is going to be a lot longer then I thought.
The Neapolitan group is back. At the end of the summer... but at least it happened right!?
I'm stressing about how much I'm going to have to do this year with school, callings, work, and volunteering.
I'm also scared all 5 of my roommates are going to be friends and I'll be the odd one out.
I feel like I'm going to miss my family more this year.
I also feel like something "big" maybe not hug the e, is going to happen. NOW- I'm not talking about marriage, if that's what you all think. I think it's something different. But I just don't know. It probably won't though, my hunches are usually wrong.
I went to the Hunger games releasing with my friends on Thursday night.
Alright boring stuff over with.
I went to the temple on Tuesday (my only day off this week) with Ashley, Karly, and Makelle. It was so much fun. We also went shopping after.
But- when we got confirmed, it was really cool. The spirit was so strong and guy that was confirming us too time to talk to us before we started and while he was saying the names and things he really took his time. I have never had anyone do it like that before. I was amazing, because he seemed like he actually cared about each and every person that he was saying. You could tell he truly did. Because they aren't just another name on a paper. They are and were real people and I like how he treated it like that.
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